When Life Breaks: DAY 1 Devotional!
Day 1: When Life Breaks: Intro
Romans 5:3-5“Not only so, but we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, who he has given us.”
Do you remember the exact moment when your life broke? Maybe it was your first miscarriage or abortion, an illness, an addiction, the death of a parent, the death of a child, the loss of a job, the loss of home, a broken marriage, extended singleness, or maybe you are like me and your life’s broken on multiple occasions for multiple reasons. Child abuse was the first thing to break my world and man, did the glass break, and the shards cut deeply, and for years I bled, asking God how and why. Why would he allow my life to break? It seemed like everyone else’s glass was intact, and that intact glass reflected decent lives, decent childhoods, and put together parents. Desperately, I attempted to negotiate with God, pleading with Him to protect my shards. As same sex attraction became a prevalent struggle even my shards crumbled and sprinkled the ground like ice. Then the shooting occurred, and one phone call took those ice-like pieces and transformed them in sand. My life had not just broken, it had shattered, and I found myself standing and screaming in the remnants asking God, “why and how”. Still in the reflection of everyone else’s glass, I saw perfect lives covered in serenity and peace.
But I was wrong. No one’s glass was flawless. There’s always brokenness -cracks along the seams and others to the point of being shattered. I was not alone. I was not the only one stepping on glass. But still I asked God, why and how was he allowing so many to suffer? Eventually as my relationship with Christ deepen, I replaced my “whys” with “what”? No longer was I asking why God was allowing this to happen, but what was God showing me in allowing this to happen?” I kept my “hows” and started asking, “how was God growing and changing me in and through this experience?” Instead of mourning my shattered reflection in the glass of my life, I celebrated the reflection of myself that I saw in the Lord almighty. In that reflection, I saw the character of the girl he had created, and the deep-seated perseverance and the hope that had been produced. Yes, life had broken, but I had not. I had been gently formed in the hands of the Father, completely molded. As you read these devotionals, I encourage you to pray for guidance from the Holy Spirit to show you how God is forming you.
Show me what you’re doing in the struggles of my life. Help me pursue you deeply and set my focus on the things above and not on the things of this Earth.